I found this post on one of my first blog I ever had. I named him Red Bedroom and it was pretty much inspired by amazing character named Peyton Sawyer. And I'm gonna post it again, beacuse it's just my true.
What's that even means? That we are healthy, famous, have a
lot of money or that we talk everyday with our friends? Brooke Davis ones asked “What
is going to make you happy?” and now, I’m asking this myself… Is that love? Can
love be the only think that will save you from hate, pain or sadness. Or it
will put you back in your dark little place.
I’ve been reading a lot of different magazines and books and
they were all telling me how I should live to be happy. They were talking about
believing in myself, always stand up for yourself and never regret. But how? But people will put you down every time they will get a chance, nobody will
support you, sometimes even not your family. I mean who will stand up for you
when you will be in your dark place, and more importantly who will show you the
light.
I was thinking about health, and I know few people who are
really sick, and some of them even died. And I thought why would God be so damn
mean and take them from us, they didn’t do anything to him or to the world. But
they were gone. Later I remembered what that person said to “I’m just
so tired.” Maybe she was tired, and I’d never want to know this pain and
suffering, but shouldn’t you fight for your own life. A lot of kids survive just because of it,
they have faith, in every day they can find something good and funny. They’re
survivors. And maybe that’s the reason why they are so good, and can just be
happy.
Fame and money? Everyone say that money is very important,
just not for our heart. I don’t know how it's lole to be famous or have a lot of money, but in the years of hard
working and giving up a lot of things, I think that success and money could give you happiness. Maybe
not for a long time, but when you will wake up tomorrow you will be just happy
that you can pay some bills, give some extra money to your son or daughter, and
not worry for one day. But if you already have this, and you just can’t enough
I don’t believe that any of material things will make you happy. Believe me
I would also dissagree with myself few years ago, I also dreamed about this
amazing clothes, phones and being just famous. And sometimes I still do. But
more and more I’m figuring out that I need people who will love, because in the end of the day clothes won’t hug me, my fans don’t really know me and all I will
need just some true friends, my family, and their love. So I know most of
people are suffering because they don't have enough money, but I hope they still got each other. We should
think about people, who are alone, with or without money.
And love ? In the beginning of writing I was wondering if
love can hurt you more, than bring you happiness. Yet I think, it can. You know it’s
like you’re a surgeon and as much as you save life, you also lose them. Still nobody can't bring them back.
In the other hand I admitted I’ve got some trust issue, and I wish
they could just go away. But they don’t. No matter what other say, you’re steal
dealing with that feeling, that someone will hurt you in every corner. I admit
I really scared of people, that I see every day, but somehow I always managed
to get through day. Even if I don’t have no one, I still have some hope, that someday
I will fly away from my little country, to America. So I think if you don’t
have anyone you should have hope, that you will find someone who will really
love you. But while you’re waiting for that person, don’t just stand there, go
to the cinema, so what if you’re going alone. Listen to the great music, go out and do
something that makes you happy, whatever this is. If this is writing or
reading, listening or talking, just do it. Don’t let people to take this away,
because you’re good. If you already find that person, make sure that you tell
them how happy you are with them, even if you give them a little kiss, or small
chocolate. It’s not about things, it’s about how you do. Always remember that.
So thank you guys. I’m hoping that you have a great night or day.
